The Big Picture
Okay. First attempt here to talk about the big picture... And before proceeding, I must warn you that the only C I ever got in high school was in geometry, indicating that logical reasoning (at least in one sense) is not my forte'.
However, for all of us creative souls, we understand there is a logic not bound by numbers. And, for all of us trying to learn of Christ, we understand that His ways our not our ways. God is not bound to our reasoning. And, I am glad that I have a God so big I cannot get my mind around Him. That would make Him a pretty small God. But, I do believe He has given us some truths about Him and His ways in Scriptures that we can understand. So, in a first attempt to put some of that all together....
One: Scripture indicates that God has numbered our days (Psalm 139:16). And, we each do have a "number". Even if I survive breast cancer, I will someday die. I don't necessarily like that, but thoughts of heaven (because I believe it is true), help. Not accepting my universally, "terminal" state is not helpful. I could survive breast cancer, but then when confronted with death again, I could still die a bitter, old woman wearing purple and a red hat. What benefit to myself or glory to God is in that?
Two: One of the things that our nurse spoke to us about was understanding that God could have prevented this cancer, but He chose not to. Therefore, He has a purpose.
Three: I really am hoping, and trusting, that my days are numbered well beyond this cancer--I have a lot to live for, including my husband and two little girls. I have a sense of peace and lots of reasons to hope that is the case. And, I will do whatever I can--resources, following directions, prayer, and maintaining my determination to help make that happen.
Four: Thus, if within the days I am allotted, God has allowed this cancer, I can accept the nurse's suggestion. I want to look for His purpose in this situation. I want to cooperate with it. I want to reflect Him through it.
It is all probably a bit simplistic. But, they are my beginning thoughts for now. My biggest concern is trying to define His purpose. I am not sure that it will be fully revealed...I think that could be frustrating. But, I also think it might be a bit arrogant to think I can shine a flashlight and identify "MY PURPOSE". But, I do hope to catch some glimmers...some moments I intuitively know "this is a part of His plan". I will trust Him with the rest.
So, those are my thoughts for now.
However, for all of us creative souls, we understand there is a logic not bound by numbers. And, for all of us trying to learn of Christ, we understand that His ways our not our ways. God is not bound to our reasoning. And, I am glad that I have a God so big I cannot get my mind around Him. That would make Him a pretty small God. But, I do believe He has given us some truths about Him and His ways in Scriptures that we can understand. So, in a first attempt to put some of that all together....
One: Scripture indicates that God has numbered our days (Psalm 139:16). And, we each do have a "number". Even if I survive breast cancer, I will someday die. I don't necessarily like that, but thoughts of heaven (because I believe it is true), help. Not accepting my universally, "terminal" state is not helpful. I could survive breast cancer, but then when confronted with death again, I could still die a bitter, old woman wearing purple and a red hat. What benefit to myself or glory to God is in that?
Two: One of the things that our nurse spoke to us about was understanding that God could have prevented this cancer, but He chose not to. Therefore, He has a purpose.
Three: I really am hoping, and trusting, that my days are numbered well beyond this cancer--I have a lot to live for, including my husband and two little girls. I have a sense of peace and lots of reasons to hope that is the case. And, I will do whatever I can--resources, following directions, prayer, and maintaining my determination to help make that happen.
Four: Thus, if within the days I am allotted, God has allowed this cancer, I can accept the nurse's suggestion. I want to look for His purpose in this situation. I want to cooperate with it. I want to reflect Him through it.
It is all probably a bit simplistic. But, they are my beginning thoughts for now. My biggest concern is trying to define His purpose. I am not sure that it will be fully revealed...I think that could be frustrating. But, I also think it might be a bit arrogant to think I can shine a flashlight and identify "MY PURPOSE". But, I do hope to catch some glimmers...some moments I intuitively know "this is a part of His plan". I will trust Him with the rest.
So, those are my thoughts for now.
posted by Beverly @ 1:24 PM
2 Comments:
At 8:04 AM,
Becky said…
Beverly,
The best thing you can do for yourself is to keep a positive outlook. Just thinking of this as a journey is a great way to begin. Cancer can be scary for you and those who love you, but the more positive your outlook the better it is for those around you, plus it keeps things in perspective for you.
I haven't dealt with cancer in myself, but did watch my mom's battle. She was strong throughout and never--NEVER--acted defeated. That was a big thing.
I am praying for you and for your precious family. You are all very special to me. Just remember you promised to come rock my baby!!! If you need anything, even just to talk, please do not hesitate to call.
Becky
At 2:24 PM,
Beverly said…
Becky,
I am looking forward to it!
Bev
Post a Comment
<< Home