Hope you Had a Happy Easter
Our Easter was a good one. We had a great Easter service, communion time where everyone went to the front (at our church, communion is weekly, and normally passed down the aisles), and a quiet day at home. Sweet dresses, pictures, and Easter baskets, phone calls with family. It was a nice day. We hope yours was, too!
A couple of insights... I have always tried to make my relationship with the Lord one based on gratitude for what He has done for me, recognizing that the fact that God has even let us know who He is, and that Jesus died to take care of my sin, is huge. Those two things are enough. Throw in my sin, which is inescapable, and I need Him. I am grateful. I have tried to avoid thinking that I could wait until I was in a foxhole of some sort, until obeying and serving Him, and for the most part, I have.
But, throw breast cancer into Easter, and, for lack of better words, WOW. Like it or not, this Easter I was in a different situation. If I did not need Him before, I do NOW. And, if I was not grateful before, I am NOW. Easter is profound. There are still some unknowns here, despite my optimism. The resurrection and defeat of death, the hope of heaven and of being united with Jesus and reunited with my family and fellow believers...it gives tearful, confident hope. Thanks, Lord.
And, while I took home that experience, I also took home a comment that seems in utter contrast to it: "Easter does not "dummy down" death. Death still stings." Probably an odd comment to take home with me, but for some reason, it fit. My optomism does not need to dummy down anything. That sting is what makes me take this cancer seriously and fight it with determination. Death still stings. It will for me, and for my daughters, and for my husband.
So, I will fight through this cancer. I will try to do so in a way that His purposes in this situation are accomplished. And, when I am 94 (I am learning to ask for BIG things from God), death will still sting, but it will be easier to accept. And then, as well as the inescapable moments between now and then, the hope of heaven and all the wonderful implications of the resurrection will be a huge comfort! Thanks, Lord!
A couple of insights... I have always tried to make my relationship with the Lord one based on gratitude for what He has done for me, recognizing that the fact that God has even let us know who He is, and that Jesus died to take care of my sin, is huge. Those two things are enough. Throw in my sin, which is inescapable, and I need Him. I am grateful. I have tried to avoid thinking that I could wait until I was in a foxhole of some sort, until obeying and serving Him, and for the most part, I have.
But, throw breast cancer into Easter, and, for lack of better words, WOW. Like it or not, this Easter I was in a different situation. If I did not need Him before, I do NOW. And, if I was not grateful before, I am NOW. Easter is profound. There are still some unknowns here, despite my optimism. The resurrection and defeat of death, the hope of heaven and of being united with Jesus and reunited with my family and fellow believers...it gives tearful, confident hope. Thanks, Lord.
And, while I took home that experience, I also took home a comment that seems in utter contrast to it: "Easter does not "dummy down" death. Death still stings." Probably an odd comment to take home with me, but for some reason, it fit. My optomism does not need to dummy down anything. That sting is what makes me take this cancer seriously and fight it with determination. Death still stings. It will for me, and for my daughters, and for my husband.
So, I will fight through this cancer. I will try to do so in a way that His purposes in this situation are accomplished. And, when I am 94 (I am learning to ask for BIG things from God), death will still sting, but it will be easier to accept. And then, as well as the inescapable moments between now and then, the hope of heaven and all the wonderful implications of the resurrection will be a huge comfort! Thanks, Lord!
posted by Beverly @ 6:23 AM
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