A Silly Thought...

This morning I was praying about my expected from phone from my nurse. "Lord, today I am getting this call...I'm going to hear whether I'm going to live or die..."

WAIT. STOP THE TRAIN. Where did that come from?

I am not going to hear "if I am going to live or die." I am getting more information about my cancer. The "state of the union." Where we go from here.

Back to some of the first lessons. We ALL are terminal. Whether by breast cancer, car wreck, or old age, I am going to die. Someday. Probably not now. (And, sorry, dear reader, this applies to you, too.)

But, I now have a serious warning. Not about pending death, but pending life. To live on purpose, and to live with purpose. To enjoy, delight, and soak in beauty as it comes. To seek the Lord with all my heart...to trust Him in new ways...to see Him at work in my daily life...to rise up and be an active part of the community which has blessed us so much in this difficult time.

So, "Lord, I am going to get a phone call, or make a phone call. Please help me hear the news with grace and courage. Help me live today with wellness in my soul, to do my laundry and housework as if for You...to parent with love and intention. To be a wife who is loving, supportive, helpful and appreciative. Amen."