Visualizing It Isn't Helping

In a common thread with my last post, I AM at peace with my upcoming surgeries. I believe my doctors when they say it is preventative, and my attitude is, truly, "sign me up!!" But...

Yet, when I think about the actual removal of my breasts...when I imagine them being placed in a metal bowl and discarded...well...I don't feel so great about it. It is a moment when "visualization" and "imagery" is less than helpful.

So...I guess for once the answer is honestly: DON'T THINK ABOUT IT! Focus on the positive, on the years to come, and on my beautiful girls and wonderful husband in front of me. Keep a sense of humor...about what it will be like to pick out parts (and I thought a wig was hard!), and what will happen if I spring a leak (my nurse said I would be sent home with a saline solution until further reconstruction takes place.) I can just see me watering the fresh produce at the grocery store! HA!

At any rate...I am okay, as long as I don't let my mind's eye conjure up unwanted images.

By the way, speaking of beautiful children and grocery stores, the girls and I just got back from shopping. When we checked out, the grocery clerk invited and helped Annaleigh to do the actual check out, making the machine read and beep at all our stuff. Perhaps something like that happens anymore only in Abilene, Texas, but it made me smile and gave me a great day. How fun!