Said I Wasn't...

A couple of entries ago, I wrote an entry about the balance and tension between living and growing NOW, versus talking about what has happened in my life this past year.

Well, the girls are in Vacation Bible School this week, and one of their songs is an upbeat, stick in your mind song:

Said I wasn't goin' talk about it,
But, I couldn't keep it to myself
(No I) Couldn't keep it to myself,
(No I) Couldn't keep it to myself

Said I wasn't goin' talk about it...
But I couldn't keep it to myself,
What the Lord has done in me (clap, clap, clap!)

The thing is, I was strongly impressed several years ago to really listen to the words of the songs going through my heart and head....especially the ones that are just faintly playing in the back of my mind at first, until I pay attention and bring them forward. I really believe it is a way the Lord speaks to me...heart to heart, one might say.

I still am firmly planted with the truth that now is now...and that I don't want to have people run the other direction when they see me coming for the cancer story I have to tell. Yet, at the same time...I don't think I am done talking. I think I have some more to say, and certainly more to ponder.